"In April 2017, I flew to Los Angeles and joined what would become Allan Holdsworth's last band and final tour, recommended by Virgil Donati. After the last show, Allan told me to call him when I got back to NY. He wanted me to let him know that I got back home okay. When I returned to NY on Tuesday April 11th I took a couple days off and spent time with my wife. On Saturday April 15th, I woke up with a really strange feeling, I couldn't quite figure it out. I didn't know what was wrong but I had this terrible anxiety that I couldn't shake. As the day went on, it got worse and I couldn't concentrate. I suddenly remembered that I hadn't called Allan yet so I immediately called him, and it rang and rang and finally went to voicemail. I left a message and as soon as I hung up, my anxiety flared up again. I didn't know what to do, I felt something was off again. The next phone call I made was to my parents, to see if everything was okay. After talking with my parents and getting the all clear from them, I still sensed something was off but forced myself to brush it off and focus on other things. When I found out the next day that Allan had passed, all the anxiety I felt the previous day made sense to me. When you play music with another person, you become connected to their soul, and I think my mind and body was trying to tell me that Allan had left this realm. 
I had a tough time dealing with his passing. As felt by many others, losing him put a big hole in my heart. My whole experience with him felt like a rollercoaster. 
I met my hero, someone who I had always looked to for inspiration... I became friends with my hero... I'm playing side by side with my hero...but then days later I'm at my hero's funeral and saying my final goodbye to him, alongside his family who I just met...who treated me like I was part of his family. Allan's entire family are all incredibly warm and intelligent, just like he was. And they all share his great sense of compassion. 

To reconnect with Allan's music and spirit I made a version of 'Looking Glass' so that I may keep his wonderful music alive in this world and pay tribute to him at my future shows. Bless you Allan and thank you for connecting me to a higher existence" -Evan Marien